Roller Fucking Coaster, eh?

Going up and up high
Going down and down low
One second on the highest of the top
On the bottom of rock bottom the next
Twirling around in my own little world
Running in circles and than, stop
The circles dizzied me and I’m all confused
Am I still on the top?
Or it’s the underground of series of complication
Light up!
Light up, fool
Haven’t you heard that song?
The one that says you are a fool to cry?
I am a fool to cry
Than again, smiling doesn’t really suit me
I’m crazy to smile
Cause I’m at the bottom of the barrel
And the highest of the top is not all that fun either
You know why?
I’m acrophobic
You know why?
I'm so afraid to fall
I would rather not fly
Chitter chatter all in my head
Of course,
Me and myself
We are the best of friends
We are the worst of enemies
Now I’m up high
Now I’m down low

-me
Sunset District, San Francisco,
Tuesday, March 24 09
around 4.40 am


"I am a contradictory mess but I see it as my prerogative to change my mood like the weather."
-Shirley Manson