That is Just the Way It Goes

She's singing a song
Of a broken heart
Mouthing the words
Of desperation
Longing for a sign of happiness

She's drown in her agony
That has lingered for too long
Waiting for happiness
to come
Day after day

Love come love goes
A smile is not forever
She has a hard time accepting
That is just the way it goes

She's singing a song
Of a broken heart
Mouthing the words
Of desperation
Longing for a sign
Of happiness

She thought she has got it all
Figured out
She knows now
There are so much more
To love than what she thought
And she's looking
She keeps on looking

She's singing a song
Of a broken heart
Mouthing the words
Of desperation
Longing for a sign
Of happiness

-me
in the middle of the night

Making Love with Death

I have been lonely for so long
Within this hard cold four walls
longing to dance freely among
The stars that flirt when the darkness falls

I'm waiting in vain for love to come
Embracing me with the warmth that he has
Take me out of my feeling of numb
Let me, in his hands, rest

He comes one day through the mist
Smiling with his two hands
Open with a bewitching kiss
Leaving me with an awe so dense

The looks on his eyes saying
He knows just what I need
He caress me who just laying
Letting him to take the lead

He whispers on my ears sweetly
Telling me that this all soon will end
All agony and pain are leaving me
With the one that I expect will mend

As I'm there enjoying his presence
He slowly takes my hand leading the way
And all kinds of pleasures on any sense
Controlling me however they may

I'm going through times and spaces
Without boundary, without limit
I am filled with all graces
Leave all feelings, no more timid

He goes deep into my core
Grabbing all there is to grab
Hopelessness, despair, the feel of sore
All gone just in a snap

The cold tickling me
Spreading all over my body
Leave me, weirdly, warm and fuzzy.
Letting me there, just be

I'm flying out of my body
Reaching for the stars that once
Was a product of my dreams only
I feel like all of me bounce

To a world unknown
Where silence and darkness are all there is
A place with no fear in its ground
Somewhere where smile is not just his

I look at him and nod, finally understand
Finally sure out of question
He is, for sure, the man
To take me to my destination

So in unison with no hesitation
We stand and walk away
Leaving all this for a liberation
As I let myself sway

I'm gone to the darkness that I once longed for
To a place that knows no question
And rest my heart that they once tore
With no expectation or any mission

With love as our blanket
He makes love to me like no one ever
And since that day, me and death
We live happily ever after

-me
05/14/08

Random Rambling of the Day

Reality is a huge hard wall between your dream and your life.
-me

Don't Love Like The First Snow in the Winter

Don’t love like the first snow in the winter
Slowly, quietly
Drop by drop
Feels your heart with great excitement
Leaps with joy
Amazes you with the beauty of it
And than go away
Without trace
Leave you wondering when will it come again
The next winter you know
But when exactly
It promises you nothing
It comes and goes as it wants to
And sometimes,
It doesn’t come

You see? The first snow in the winter
Is so beautiful on the surface
Candy for your eyes
Just spreads so pure
White
But when you step on it
You are left with mud
Ruined grass
And you long for the beauty
And the next day you come back
You see the first snow in the winter
Covers the dirt
But you deep down you know
The mud is there waiting for you to step on

And you know, you love the first snow in the winter
Oh, you really do
With all the fun that comes with it
Wonderfully warm in a weird way
You can play all day
Yes, you can
And you love it
Maybe except
Oh, except
Except
It is cold
It touches your face, your arms
And it hurts
Oh, but you love it

The thing is, the first snow in the winter
Traps you inside
Of the cold
The first snow in the winter
Forces you to hide
Inside
Isolated from the world
And when the spring comes
You forget how fun it is outside
You are scared
For you have been trapped for so long
And you trapped inside
Forever

And the first snow in the winter
Is a cheater
It is possessive
It will not let you play with the sun
The rain
The trees
The grass
Yet you know
When it covers you with joy
It covers you with
With
Love?
With love
It also covers many other souls
With the same love it shows for you

See? The first snow in the winter
Forces you to wear jacket
Layers of jackets
It forces you to cover yourself
In a shelter
When you try to touch
The first snow in the winter
With a bare skin
Trying to feel the texture
The shape of it
The feeling inside it
It numbs you
You shiver with cold
It’s stabbing you inside

Don’t love like the first snow in the winter
The first snow in the winter
Leaves you waiting
The whole year
And when it comes
It isn’t as beautiful
As you think it would
As you think it is

So don’t
Love
Like the first
Snow
In the winter