Random whinning after 24 hours straight without sleep

Do you remember when you were younger you used to think how great it is to be older? First you imagined how fun it is to be a high school student. With all the somewhat glamorous life. Then you wanted to go to college because it sounded so much more fun and free. Then you imagined how fun it is to be an adult. You're working, you have a full life, and you can do whatever you want to do.
I used to do that a lot. I imagined what it is like in college. No, to be more specific, I imagined what it is like to go to college in America. It must be so fun.
Today, at this exact moment, I'm living up my dream. I AM in college in AMERICA. My dream came true. I'm here. Right here right now. Still, I feel so discontented because most of the time I feel lost. The amount of stress that I have to face is ridiculous.
I have to deal with all sorts of things. Money, homework, relationships, housing, and all other things. The most depressing of all is that I have to face the fact that all of this will determine my future. Not all of it, but a great deal of it.
Too many times I feel so tired and stressful and I want to end it all and fly somewhere else. Too many times I feel that this is bullshit. I'm tired. I'm through with school. I'm through with studying, that is in a formal education. I want to leave it all and go somewhere where I can do something that matters. I'm fucking tired.
It leads me into thinking what made me think that college life is so great. Here is the answer. You know, when we were little and we planned things, we didn't actually have to make it real. Plan it in our heads the way we want is enough. Having great dreams is easy when you don't have to realize it.
Now that I have to make it real, I can't. I don't know how to do it. I'm tired. I'm through.
I'm through.
I swear I'm through