The Unfairness of 'God(s)'

If I never exist
I will not be a human
With all fears and worries and pains
Lost in never ending questions
Without answers
And yet is expected to be faithful

If I never exist
I will not live an empty life
Without purpose
Without knowing why
Without understanding how
and yet is bound to live it

If I never exist
I will not be a sinner
With the shadow of punishment
Above my head
Scared every single moment
Of the prospect of hell
and yet is condemned to do it

If I never exist
I don’t have to live in an endless cycle
Playing the big game
Without knowing the rules
Or when I will win
If I can win
and yet can't get out

If I never exist
I won’t have to live
With inevitable truths
Of how roses have their thorns
And happiness won’t linger
Not even for a while
and yet is forced to believe differently

If I never exist
I won’t have to live up
To the expectations of people
That I don’t even know who
Oblige to live like the dead
Face the world of unjust
and yet is compeled to fulfill it

If I never exist
I don’t have to fight
Neither kills for survival
And lost in the maze
Of unfortunate events
and yet is demanded to be civilized

If I never exist
I won’t be held liable
For the mistakes
That are destined to me
And marked with my blood
and yet is necessitate to stay pure

If only I never exist
I won’t have to endure
The sentence for my offense
That are ensured to be done by me
Since the first day I shredded my tear
and yet is asked to be fair

If only I never exist
I will be the happiest man
There ever is
And yet here I am in my existance

-me
April 7 2008

(Another product of my contemplation with Danny, Lucky, Gora)